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I'm upset. I wanted to write a poem or something to let it out, but I can't. I have no inspiration. But I guess since I usually bitch instead of actually get into it on my Blurty I'm going to just explain the whole thing. I was talking to this girl on AIM that I sorta know in the real world, and she suggested letting me borrow a dress of hers and I was like, "well I'm not as little as you. ;)" or something like that because she thought it would fit and I didn't think that it would. :\ And I showed it to Billy for another reason or something and he was like "why did you wink at her?" or something and it got into an argument about how I didn't mean it seriously or flirtingly or anything and he just got upset and I started yelling. :| I feel bad about it because it's not like I think when I do things like that, I just do them to be silly or something and then they are taken the wrong way. I know that I would be kind of upset if he did that to one of his friends, but whenever I do something like that around him, he says something like, "next time I'll do that to *insert female friend's name here*" and stuff. Which of course makes me even more upset and pissed and then I told him that if he had simply told me NOT to do things like that, it would have been easier for me not to. But the first time he said something like that to me, it was when he was here and I told him to just tell me not to do something like that and I wouldn't do it, but he didn't tell me because he would feel controlling or something. But to tell the truth, if he had told me NOT to do stuff like that, I probably would have listened, because I just function better like that I think. If somebody tells me that something hurts them, then I may repeat it without realizing that it hurts them because they didn't tell me to STOP. ...Yeah. Or maybe that sounds ridiculous to you. I don't know. I don't care right now. I just want to stop arguing. :(
Sorry that was such a huge paragraph. ._. |
