Today was the day that Billy left. Once again, sorry for the lack of updates and comments this past month or so. I'll get back to that as soon as possible...and as soon as I find inspiration for it as well. Although I wouldn't be surprised if some of my friends took me off their lists because I wasn't online or active here for so long. But right now I don't really care that much because my mind is occupied with other things. ._.;
...Anyway.
Just now I was going to go to sleep. But I couldn't sleep. Because I'm upset. I'm not as much so right now but when I lay down in bed and think of little things like how I used to look forward to the mornings when I would get to just go downstairs and wake him up or hop into bed with him and how much I liked to hold hands with him and hug him and kiss him and *sighhhh* so much stuff. .__. I know, it's not like it's forever and I should be grateful for what I got with him under the circumstances we're in and all, but I'm really upset. I miss him more than anything and all I want right now is to be with him. ._. Right there with him, not miles and miles away from him. I want to be able to touch him again, to be able to stare into those beautiful green eyes again. I know I have to be patient, but I just can't. I want to be with him NOW. ._. I cannot live without breathing the same air that he breathes, I cannot smile without seeing the same smile on his face right next to me.
...Maybe I need to go get my god damned sleep so I don't go crazy writing all these grieving feelings down. >> I'm going to go talk to some people and then go to bed. Maybe it'll make me feel better. >> |
